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Posted by Bailey
11 Apr 2009

I'M BAAAAAAAACK! Well...I was back more than a week ago...but as we can all see, I have a talent of neglecting things. I've had tons on my mind recently.

You guys know how I was talking about my mom's best friend earlier? It pains me say this, but she passed away the other night. But she's not gone. She can't be. She's still lying in her hospital bed? Smiling through her pain. She's not gone. It's not possible. Someone who fought this cancer so hard, couldn't just die like that. Just a few weeks ago, she was at our house, and smiling, laughing, and teasing. It happened so fast. She promised us God would heal her. And when I prayed to him, he kind of gave me the feeling that he would, and that all of the cancer would go away. That she would walk again...that we could hug her again...just hang out together again... That's not the case. I just...I don't understand. She was the most amazing person you would ever meet. She never was sad, even if things weren't going well. Why did this happen? My dad was talking about how it's kind of like a promotion. That she did her work so well here on Earth, that God wanted to promote her to a better position; Heaven. But the thing is, I think we all still needed her. I don't understand. She had so much life, she had a family, friends, everything. Her husband is upstairs right now. I try to act normal but I can't. It's so hard. I was at work yesterday, and it was right after I heard the news. It's what I woke up to. I was talking to my boss on the phone about something, and she asked me how I was holding up. And I absolutely lost it. I didn't know what to do. And I still don't. It's not fair.

Sorry that my rant was sort of "religious", as some may call it. Sorry if I offended you.

My Grandma is doing alright. She's in Palliative Care now (a room in the hospital...you know, the nice ones you stay in before you die?). They said she has four months at the most. This is just too much death and cancer for one person to handle. I hate it.

School is stupid. We're studying Jonathan Swift in English now. I don't really like his work that much, but I didn't like Hemingway's at first either, so I guess I can't judge it yet. French is horrible. I swear I will fail. I feel like the only one who can't speak the darn language. I'm not taking it again next year. Science is alright. It's nothing special really. And Web Authoring is a breeze! It's the most basic stuff ever! Like more basic than Piczo...actually not, but you catch my drift.

I really don't know what to talk about. I've been writing quite a few songs recently (well, just lyrics actually). And I sometimes post 'em on Facebook. Well my friend, a couple of months back, really enjoyed the lyrics, so he wrote music to them. He's coming over on Monday to show me. I'm kind of excited :) It should be interesting. I'll let you know how it goes.

I'm not in the mood to reply to comments from my last blog right now. I'll do it tomorrow.